Thoughts

another minute has gone by & i'm still lost. trying to figure out who i am, who i once was, & who i will become. it's hopeless dreams all in my head. like flushing down the drain everything that i had. can it get more stupid than to think i'm still alive? so how do i explain to myself that i'm dead? yes. i'm still lost. just like u there w/ the blog "All I know is gone". can it be you whom i've found? maybe its you who can give me hope...

"I won't be homeless for long"

it all happened so fast, but time passed by so slow.
one phone call did it all.
this could mean a change for the rest of my life,
I'm in Shock.yet i'm going.
With fear, lots of fear
i'm scared. scared of what will happen. scared of making the greatest mistake of my life.

I'm HOMELESS, homeless as can be.
trying to find a HOME IN SOMEONE'S HEART
while my own heart gets broken...
HOMELESS -- that's my middle name.
& i feel helpless because i don't know where to run.
Yet my legs run towards the end of a steep cliff,
where I will fall & never come back.

It's painful,
yet i can't bring to the surface of my eyes the tears being cried within.
All the friends i will be leaving behind...
all the memories...
i don't want to lose them...
please.. i don't want to lose them.
All the pain this will cause to those nearest to me...
All: please forgive me

i'm scared, i'm scared.
oh god, you who oversees me & my actions,
you who knows my fate,
please guide me, guide me in the right direction.
Tell me you will walk by my side.
Tell me I won't be homeless for long.

This is a blog, don't take it personal, yet those who know will learn I'm truly "homeless", but will hope that I'm not homeless for long. Thanks & I'll miss you: